Dear Carolyn: I just found out Im pregnant and Im not happy about it. Quick backstory: Im about to turn 40 and recently married my boyfriend of six years. We almost didnt get married because he did not want to have kids and I was not prepared to say never.
After many (many) conversations and one near breakup a sad but kind one he decided hed rather be with me and would be open to having a child if it happened.
Well, its happened, and all I feel is dread. Its been a week and I cant seem to dig up one happy feeling. My husband says its totally up to me what I want to do, though hes understandably concerned that Im not more excited, and worried about proceeding if that doesnt change.